Posted by squinky on Dec 10, 2021

Hello comrades! Today, it's time for a deep cut from the top secret vault of unfinished Soft Chaos projects. That's right, I'm going to tell you the story of the very first thing that the three of us ever decided to work on together, back in the increasingly distant year of 2015: something we have been calling... *deep breath* Selfie Game: The Movie: The Game: Song of Myselfie.

I don't think any of us remember exactly how this project came to be, but I suspect it had something to do with being cranky about and/or wanting to make fun of 2012's Indie Game: The Movie. One of us probably suggested something like "wouldn't it be funny if we made our own indie game documentary filmed entirely using selfie sticks?" and another one of us might have responded with "yeah, and it should also be an FMV game!" and then someone else (probably Jess) suggested including "Song of Myselfie" somewhere in the already very long and ridiculous working title with too many colons. Obviously, this idea was so conceptually compelling that we just had to figure out how to make it actually happen.

Eventually, we decided that every day from April 1 to June 30 of 2015, we would record a 15-second video selfie: basically the same idea as "1 Second Everyday" but with 14 more of them. We would then leave the decision of what, exactly, to do with all those videos to our future selves, but in the meantime, we just enjoyed the process of documenting our lives as they were happening at that point in time. I was in the middle of finishing, exhibiting, and defending my MFA thesis at UC Santa Cruz, Jess was traveling in Europe for over half the time and helping to run a Games Incubator, and Allison was preparing to head to New York for her MFA while showing In Tune at festivals and attending her grandfather's funeral along the way.

Me, making a video chat appearance in one of Allison's selfies.

Jess at the airport, about to embark on their Eurotrip.

Ponies? Ponies.

After our allotted 3 months were over, we tried to figure out how to design an interactive experience around these selfie videos, but the rest of our lives got in the way and, aside from screening a selection of the videos at a gallery exhibition the three of us participated in at Champlain College in Burlington, Vermont later in 2015, the project would never again see the light of day.

Years later, the whole ordeal that was 2020 happened. At that point, the three of us were living in the same city making games together again and tentatively planting the seeds of what would soon become Soft Chaos. I believe it was I who brought up Selfie Game: The Movie: The Game: Song of Myselfie again and wouldn't it be fun to do the same thing 5 years later, especially now that we had the opportunity to document the weird, apocalyptic moment in time that was the early days of COVID? And so, from April 1 to June 30 of 2020, we did exactly that.

The day Allison first met her now-girlfriend Dee, while running a game of Long Time Listener, Last Time Caller.

Jess doing a foxy closetplay.

Helping Allison move, complete with terrible homemade cloth masks.

Now, our current plan is for this to be a very long-term project that we pick up every 5 years. Maybe someday it'll become an actual documentary (interactive or otherwise) about the history of Soft Chaos, or maybe it'll just be a fun activity we keep to ourselves. Maybe we'll even come up with a more snappy title (but we don't see how that's possible :P). Who knows what the future will bring?

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