Posted by Tezzle on Jul 07, 2023
So a lot of my 20s were spent dropping projects that had momentum but I'd get cold feet when it was nearing a certain level of commitment, because I had all these hang-ups about what art I was "Supposed" to be making in order to succeed in the exact way I wanted to.
...And then of course I Wouldn't do those other things I didn't wanna admit I just Wasn't Vibing With at the time either, and Nothing would get done. Rinse and repeat!
Now I'm 30 and I Don't care. My day job pays the bills, I have a family to raise which I'm happy and proud to commit to, so what little time I DO have I've decided to just go with the flow.
All that to say for the past couple months I've REALLY been into developing a mecha themed card game. I pause to call it a TCG, because even if I Had the means and connections and capital to release a TCG I wouldn't want to that economy is toxic and ruins those games for me. Pay to Win competitive-scene, exploitative after-market, impossible to play casually unless you just wanna lose constantly or again can Afford to keep up with the meta.
ANYWAY. I dunno where it's going, I've been talking with my gf Hailey about making a videogame around it. MAYBE if we playtest the cardgame part and it has legs I'll make a separate Comradery page for whatever I wanna do with it, but for now I really am just trying to ENJOY developing the game. And I'm succeeding!!
Three Hares is still important to me, I still wanna make it, I'm never not lowkey thinking about Three Hares. But I just wanted to keep y'all in the loop! I'm not gonna apologize because I assure you this is the better outcome than me going "BLUH BLUH But I should be making Three Hares instead" and then doing N E I T H E R . Who knows! Maybe I'll get a wild hair (or three) up my ass and suddenly wanna hop back into this project. The point is if I wanna make ANYTHING right now I Gotta go with where my muse is taking me. I'm Not an actual professional artist/creator, that's not a diss it's just I have an actual day job that pays my bills so when I stress myself out Pretending I have all these artistic obligations for a non-existant career all I'm doing is ruining my passion.
I may be in my 30s but when it comes to my art I have to admit I'm still a baby. I wanna do it ALL, but I've barely done ONE thing, I gotta know where my strengths are, where my passions are, the difference between what I TRULY love doing and just "it'd be really cool if I did that but also meh I dont feel like it right now." I hope you understand this will be better for Three Hares in the longrun, thank you for your continued support and patience!
.......OH also i'm on CoHost: https://cohost.org/Tezzle
Love you!
- Tezzle